Regarding My Retirement

Regarding My Retirement

hello hi you know that phrase there’s an elephant in the room it’s like 12 elephants i’ll start with what might be the biggest elephant in the room the samurai hit samurai hit 10 million subscribers last video uploaded with celebration of 9 million saying all this stuff oh you got so many memories to make oh we still got time and then i never uploaded another video is this serious um i got a package from youtube that i’ve been waiting for before i wanted to do this video corey go ahead give him a little sneak peek but before all of that before i do something i open a package which i don’t even deserve i wanted to speak with you all candidly about my whereabouts and um some i guess my retirement now strapping got a lot to talk about your boy hair change a lot of changes tired of walking around with the nappy afro we done with that all right i’m old yo it feels good it feels good to the front of the camera i always feel like man it’s about to be so awkward but it’s like i sit down and i i never missed a beat some of my family members got covered um now this happened like months ago my grandma got covered it was very very bad not only my grandma my aunts my cousins actually made a video a couple months ago that i’m very glad that i didn’t upload because it was super depressing i’m just gonna use this video to get my feelings out um vent to the camera sort of like the old 2015 2016 youtube days all it was was i was talking about covet i was talking about my family i was gonna upload it because i’m like at least it’ll tell them where i’m at but the video was so depressing i’m like someone’s gonna watch this video and then their day is gonna get worse and i never want that to happen so i never uploaded that video fast for like another month i hit 10 million subscribers now my cousin was the first one to let me know because um i wasn’t checking last time i saw i was like at 9.6 million and i was like oh shoot i’m getting close i need to prepare something i need to have something ready because this is a moment in the making years in the making and before i knew it my cousin called me so excited about how i hid it like a moment that i was dreaming about is finally here and my grandmother is in the hospital about to pass away there’s such a minuscule amount of youtubers that ever reach 10 million and here i was one of the chosen few sitting here in my car that’s where i was i didn’t want to go on social media i i really despise going on social media when i’m not working because there’s a lot of people asking where i’m at conspiracy videos where’s corey kenshin i hate those videos i hate them so much mike has sent this to corey extension yt which is queer extension female and surprisingly corey’s country did respond to mike no i didn’t respond to your email mike and sami osakas actually believed it videos got like 400k views because of in fake email he spelled august wrong there’s no e in august don’t believe any other youtubers talking about i know when corey kitchen is coming back they don’t know when i’m coming back because i don’t know when i’m coming back you wait for the source i am the source even a freaking video talking about i worship the devil cause i had a red t-shirt on your boy curry kitchen curry kitchen you know obviously he has a coca-cola shirt all right and if y’all remember my video i explained you know how satanic that symbol is worship the devil those people that believed it in all the breaks that i’ve taken uh i gotta hand it to you first of all the samurai is probably the most die-hard loyal community on this website um because i don’t know no other youtubers that can leave and come back the way that i do for as long as i do and to gain a million subscribers while i’m gone probably like pewdiepie’s you know he could do it you know but like besides that i don’t know so i gotta hand it to you um but what i’ve done is create a divide in my subscriber base in my community you know we got the people that no matter what die hard don’t talk about the show gun like that i’ll come to your house and then we got the people that have seen the fall from glory the fall from grace um i was here when cory was really about this youtube stuff i saw the effort that this man actually would put in i saw the work and the the talent and the charisma and the essence of what that man used to be now sure you know i’ve come back from breaks and i’ve dropped bangers obviously but i’ve never resumed the the magic magic is simply the byproduct of doing something that you love to do unconditionally for example for me that’s video games when you’re doing something that you love to do doing something that no one has to tell you to do something that you’re you don’t feel forced to do you reach this almost zen-like state of kind of like ultra instinct you just moving autonomously the magic has been gone and i think i realized that a while ago which is why at seven million subscribers i made the dumb idea of or i had the dumb idea of announcing that i was going to retire at 10 million i say it’s dumb because all that it that that really did i feel was put a lot of panic in my community um i feel like it kind of made it happen faster if that makes sense and um there was really no i mean i thought about it at that point but i should have thought about it even more and if i did i would have come to the conclusion you probably don’t want to say anything until you make until it’s happening you know and and then i wrestle like well you don’t want to surprise people like that but i don’t know i just feel like it created a lot of panic and um if i could re do that i wouldn’t have announced my retirement at seven million but that is the next biggest elephant in the room i told you guys that i had other stuff that i want to do with my life you know go back to school and um you know start a family which i guess like isn’t mutually exclusive from making youtube videos i always just thought it would be super hard to do and um shoot i’m clearly complacent as it is where i’m at now so add a family on top of that and and i always thought like nah i’ll probably be done by that time it’s hard to do youtube like really do youtube and do like other stuff which is why like i have a lot of breaks because while i can do youtube and do other things um a sharp decline of quality would be ever present in those videos retirement to me is scary because i know that there are some detractors that believe me doing youtube is only because of money money being my biggest motivator for coming back when i do and like don’t need money anymore money is zero number zero motivator for me making videos um but i was scared for different reasons i felt that god had given me such a gift of this channel of this community who am i to just put that down and say that i’m done with that how do you how do you walk away from a blessing because that’s what you guys are 100 hands down even the haters even the people that talk junk even everybody um that has anything negative to say you all are a blessing and how could i reconcile walking away from that i’m a gamer through and through it just makes sense for me to have this kind of career so if it’s a blessing and i’m good at it and i’m a gamer through and through what is the cause for retirement why is that even something that i considered what because i get tired of doing it sometimes and this is me you know going back and forth with myself i posited that if it was something that i really love to do why do i put it down so much my dad works for ford and what his job is is figuring out solutions to various problems that arise in the plant and my dad likes that job because he said it challenges his mind he it’s not just brainless grunt work where he’s pressing a button in a conveyor belt sometimes the solutions can be very complex could take hours to to fix this one singular problem now stretch that out for about 20 years okay and my dad isn’t so fond of his job at ford anymore he’s just not in a position to put it down whenever he feels like it that’s all the difference now clearly i’ve taken that idea and run with it to the most extreme i mean when you are doing something and then you put it down for nine months for four months three months five months there’s something fundamentally wrong and i think i figured out what that is a lack of challenge a lack of mental stimulation beyond what’s normal i mean it’s evident in all the games that i play what i do automatically put it on the hardest difficulty never played the game in my life but i needed to be on the hardest difficulty i feel like i’m talking a lot i know what i want to say and what i want to say is that there’s no possible way that i can retire and um while i’m sure that’s great news to some people it kind of feels like i’m playing with the feelings of other people that’s like yo you had us thinking you’re going to retire this whole time and now you’re saying that you’re not yeah you’ll be on another break in two months i entertained that thought too i’m like dude you you can’t just come back and be like i’m not retiring because that’s insensitive you had these people thinking since seven million that you were going to do that and so now i’m thinking like no now i have to do it now i’m locked into a choice but you’re never locked into anything except child support you never want to do something because you feel like you forced into it i want to continue to be a positive influence over the young people that watch me so something that i was thinking about was making a new channel and i’m like you really bout to do this all over again corey you really about to start from scratch but i kind of want to so i’m issuing a challenge to myself so that i can make sure that things stay interesting number one go back to school number two continue doing youtube while i’m at school number three get another channel up to 10 million subscribers and number four get the corey kenshin channel to 25 million subscribers this should keep me extremely busy but it’s very important it’s very important that i just don’t plateau you know that i don’t relax and i i reach i got my diamond play button there’s nothing else for me to do you know because there’s there’s always something to do you just have to challenge yourself you just have to think outside the box you just can’t get complacent like i have been these past years things we could do with our time if we used it properly let’s get to the play button i uh i did redo my office got a couple displays over there not sponsored even though they keep asking me to make sponsored videos oh by the way this is a new detroit hat because um my other one has some miles on it check this one out hold on let me let me show you can you see [Applause] i’m not gonna hold you this thing is heavy my mom always says the heavier it is the more expensive it is and i’m inclined to agree with that you see because this was an expensive in the currency that you might be thinking of money no this my people this was expensive in the most precious form of currency time this took me over 10 years to get and if we’re all being honest like i said earlier i don’t even feel like i deserve it but god blesses us in ways that we don’t understand nor deserve so thank you so let me get this open here yes sir yes yo it is a freaking suitcase briefcase case yes sir yes sir all right all right everybody relax calm down susan herself wrote me ceo of youtube dear corey kenshin at a hundred thousand we thought not bad that’s a healthy new channel at 1 million we thought wow this creator is pretty awesome susan really you should have came to that conclusion at 50k by 10 million at this point we’re actually scratching our heads how on earth 10 million subscribers isn’t just a lot of people it’s more than the entire population of new york city the fact is you’re no longer just a great channel you’re a movement i said you’re no longer i’m getting nightmare samurai stand up i repeat stand up we hope you’ll accept this diamond creator award as a token of our appreciation and our respect for what you’ve accomplished you amaze us and inspire us every day keep it coming yours sincerely susan josh kiki um it’s been an honor to be able to be on this platform and inspire and just create the best content that i can [Music] thank you for having me with exposition out of the way ah i’m sorry [Music] i gotta see this man you guys oh oh my this yo hold on hold on one second i can’t i can’t just i can’t just be touching this with my bare hands are you crazy let me get my swavarsky yo this thing is heavy [Music] [Music] this is a level in my wildest dreams did i ever think i would did i ever think that i would make it here and it’s because of you guys praise god man praise god for giving me you guys ah they messed around and gave corey kingston a diamond play button [Music] youtube do y’all sell cases for this i’m just supposed to keep this out so he can get scratched up we need a case for this oh well i mean there’s that case but like a display case i mean it sits up nice you see they got this padding at the bottom so you could like put it like on the mantel oh look at that diamond plate i put it on like a mantle something like that but no i i need like a like a case for this no matter where you are in life you might feel like you wasted too much time or that it’s too late for you to get wherever you’re trying to go accomplish whatever you’re trying to accomplish and that is the worst thing that you could ever possibly do for yourself be your biggest critic and your biggest cheerleader believe in yourself have faith and don’t give yourself any limits because there are none look at me washed up youtuber use me as an example go back to the video where i’m announcing that i’m trying to reach 10 000 subscribers and i i’m at 10 million subscribers look at that and and see that at that time at that point in time i had no idea if i could even reach 10 000 and here god has put in my lap 10 million if you all there are no limits
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